My book of essays of Support for Russell

My heartfelt message of support for Russell

Poem 2. My Scream To the UK Court and Media about The my Teacher that Is On Trial saved me with his Golden heart.

This is my Written Scream to the UK courts And the Media You declare that the Teacher I Love. Is a Monster to women from his Days of being a Wild Man chasing The Dragon That was Truth That Answer to his inner Core wounds that Screamed At Him To Be Healed That Only He Feels and can't Be seen From the Outside But No One Cares About him Being with women  untill He found The Life Saving Grace Of Recovery And then Found A Comfortable place To Land In a Family and The dragon Promising Him False Answer To the Screaming Wounds. to go Away And then The Teacher I Love was  Thankfully  saved By The Scared Holy Creator Of Earth And the heaven That Gave Us his Only Son. Sadly and Beautifully there is a Irony Of the Day That the Teacher I Love faces  his Legal Judgement day And Is having Who He is Slandered and his Past Being Pulled Apart Is A Day Of a Personal milestone I didn't Think Was possible Only Two Years ago. Iam 30 years Old Now But at the Age of 13 I was In a Screaming match with My Mother Because My Parents most of My Life would Share  vocal Venom of Strong  Distate At each other and my sacred  Soul was Too Raw For the Vocal Venom and the Only  coping with Life Tool I had In my mental collection  Tool Box was Slashing and Lashing Myself In the Form of Self given Headaches. That I Lied To myself  that I would Only do It Once. that Turned Out to Be Lie I told Myself Because that Became a Habit And a Physical Addiction of Mine from that  Highly Emotional Moment As a Raw Soul Teen that Was a Wounded Daddy's Girl who didn't Understand  why My Dad Was In and Out of My Life And  when I was young teen why my Parents didn't Understand my Raw Soul that Felt As Though I couldn't Be Heard So I thought That a Physical Action Would speak More Than My Words for Me. I also Lied to Myself That This Physical Action Did Shield Me From Getting Emotionally Harmed from people By Physically Saying Without words that I can Hurt myself More than you can as Twisted and Insane as that sounds. I did Have the Scary unspoken thought  of How Much  self given Headaches do I Have to Do for It to Be  the Black Line Of to Medically To far But Tragically Even that Thought wasn't Enough For me to End this Shameful  physical action. It Got to the Breaking Point of Being In My Dad's House and He was a Ex Prison officer Who still had his Silver Chains from his Chapter Of his Life that He worked And When his House Was no longer the Safe Sanctuary I thought it was and he Promised me it would Be His How to cope with Life  Tool Box Was Low too and His House Turned Into a Place of Darkness and Traumatic  Nightmares for me.I was Screaming Physically The Habit of Just self Giving Headaches Shifted to tools And Those were the  most Darkest  two Years of  my Life. I Had No awareness of my Body Being a Temple made by God and Jesus because  I had a Atheist Childhood and Teen Life even though I do Believe that My Senstive Soul was a Way to Access the Sacred Even In the Hateful And atheist Childhood  I had. but Then  I carried Inward Emotional Bricks Of Shame In me Because I was still Engaging in the Self given Headaches At The age of 28 I thought that This Was Not possible for me to End. My Family and friends Hated it But After Soo many Years Of Me Doing These physical Self Given Headaches At the age of 28. but  I Took a Chance to Tell my Friends That I have this Physical Shameful struggle They Met with Kindness and Empathy Because The Teacher I  Love Taught Me The Incredible Healing power of Being Vulnerable And Honest about your Struggles And Then  I saw That  the Teacher I Love Was Live on the app that is My online home And  the Miracle Of Me Having Three Days free from any Self Injury  Had  Happened and I told the Teacher I Love And Respect And The Teacher Met me With the Powerfully Force of Empathy and Love and Understanding as He walked his Four Legged friend in the Dark of his homeland. this Was a Watershed Moment for me For change Because I was Fed up with My Own Self Injury actions at the age of 28 and I felt The Teachers healing empathy and Love through the Wires of my Phone and Into my headphones and my ears. This is What I want to Scream to The UK Government and  to the UK courts and the Media that Wants to Slander The Teacher I Love and Respect Because The Teacher Gave me a Roadmap For Recovery
That Was Tested by him and that Worked Now the Day that The Teacher Faces His David and Goliath Battle Is Two Years Free from any Type of Self Injury to My holy Made Temple. To the Holy Trinty I do Repent For my Past Lashing and slashing To My Temple when I didn't Know that  the Holy son Didn't Know that My Temple was My Body Holy Made that the Teacher I Love  told Me That forever changed my Life. The Life I Live Now Of Not Giving Myself Headaches Daily  and Coming close to The Two Years Anniversary of Being Free of This  I used to think was Not possible.
This is My Written scream to The UK Courts and the Media About the Teacher I Love that Is On Trial that saved me With his Golden Heart..