My conversations with God and other spiritual essays for Russell.
Part 12.
My essays about Russell and Brandon advice to Me and forgiving My Abusive dad
Essay 1. Asking Russell and Brandon How to forgive my dad for the Abusive nightmare that was His house.
Recently i have Been thinking about the lords Holy book says that we should Honour our Parents. But thats Not always easy to do when both parents hated each other. But Honouring abusive parents is even harder. It is Now 2 years Since my Dads Death. My 29th Birthday is Tommorow. I don't want to Be a Prisoner to the past. Iam 9 years out of my Domestic violence experience with my dad and his wife. Me and my dad were Both mentally struggling at the same time. My dad was a Prison officer. Then Depression came to Live in my mind. And then My Dads house Became A House With mentally struggling daughter and father And step mum. It became A place where We were All walking On Eggshells around each other. But we forgot The Love. I Felt alone at my Dads house while i was mentally struggling and thinking that everyone Including my dad and his wife ley. I was sudical for a long time but even though my dad and his wife Were the people that were Traumatizing me i didnt want to give them the Joy of Knowing they eere the Reason that i gave up. Russell the Type Of abuse that i went through with my Dad was he put me in handcuffs from his past work due to my self harming i sat there in that chair i felt hopeless and trapped But Russell during the two years of Domestic Violence hell With my Dad And His wife there was days where i didn't want to wake up in the morning but music and my friends and Me being a volunteer at the locals foodbank gave me a purpose in the darkness. Russell and Brandon thankyou sooo much For answering My Question About Forgiving my Abusive Dad. brandon I found it Very Comforting when You said that Only God and Jesus can Help Me When i ask For Strength from Jesus In Prayer That felt humbling to me. I felt a huge Amount of Relief when Brandon said that My Healing and holy path of forgiveness Is one day at a time Process. I felt alot of reflief That I don't Have to forgive the Whole two Years of Trauma all at once. Russell you saying that my Question is complex is Very correct. It was a Very Loaded and A Complex Question And The Situation with my dad while He was alive was very complex and Now Its more complex and Emotionally Raw now that He is gone. Asking Russell and Brandon How to forgive my dad for my Abusive nightmares that was His house. Russell i Have not seen that Tv show West world that you were talking about when you were Answering my Question. But Russell and Brandon both the advice you shared with me Was Very Wise and Helpful. So thankyou sooo Much. Russell when you talked about your abuse from People you Didn't Know as a Kid my Heart Broke for you. Iam soo sorry that you went through that Russell i Pray for your Healing From all the Trauma that you have Been Through.
Asking Russell and Brandon How to Forgive my dad for the Abusive Nightmare that was his house.
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