Essays about Russell and Brandon Advice to Me about forgiving my abusive dad for the abuse nightmare in his house.

Essay 2. Praying to jesus Christ for the Strengh to Forgive my Dad for Treating Me like his personal puching Bag in the Bathroom.

The night before My 29th birthday I was Listening to Russell and Brandon advice to Me about forgiving my Abusive dad and his wife for the Traumatizing Hell that Was my time under their roof. I felt a Very Strong and loud call from god and Jesus To Get on my Knees and do a Before the clock Struck midnight I wanted to have a powerful sacred and spritual Experience. And i got it when i Put On my Dads Jacket Which is comforting to the very strong and painful Grief and Loss from My Dads death. Dad I think your forgot the Memo That in a father and daughter Relationship The Love should be Unconditional and Free from Physical pain but Dad You were caught up in your Own Mental misery and i became a target and a punching Bag for you and your anger. Dad I paid a heavy mental and emotional and physical Price For You not Having healed your demons before you became a parent and after. dad you got ptsd And You blamed me for it But i blame your past Job as a Prison Officer cause the stories that you used to tell about Prisoners Was sooo crazy. So In my Emotional prayer that was Answering Gods Call to Pray for the strength to Heal the Past Trauma with My dad When i had a Large cast on my Knee after i Injured the Acl In my Left Knee after i fell over in the Rain in a different town But This trauma takes Place In the Bathroom At my Dads house because He got angry at me cause i Was having a hard time Turning a bathroom Tap Off correctly and he got Inpatient with Me. And then i Became the Target that Got Hit With his anger And He Came into the bathroom while Feeling angry and Yelling at Me. So Me making a mistake is a trigger For Me because Soo many times i made a mistakes my Dad got angry at Me And i fear someone getting angry at Me when i make a mistake. Praying to jesus Christ for strength to forgive my dad for treating Me like his personal punching bag. Je Started to Yell at me and say Get out of the way. But the bathroom was very small and i had a injured knee. So i couldn't move as fast as i normally do. And Then he began to physically Push me into the shower Wall. But Last night in my Powerful and Healing Prayer experience I Felt that god and Jesus was With Me i was also singing the Hilsong United Song Oceans in my Prayer Experience asking for God and Jesus to Give me strengh to Forgive my lost Abusive dad For this bathroom physical trauma. So In My prayer experience last night I prayed to god and Jesus To Grant me the strength to forgive and i cried and i told god and Jesus that i wanted to fully surrender This trauma to god and Jesus just Like Brandon said. It was such a Relief that Brandon said that me forgiving my Dad is a daily Process because forgiving Two Years of trauma all at once is overwhelming. I did feel that i did let that Trauma Go. And that I did forgive this bathroom trauma. I did feel healing. I felt a powerful holy inward emotional shift. Praying to jesus Christ for the strength to forgive my dad for treating me like his personal punching bag.