Essay 1. My final step mothers love was a Toxic apple and I ate it.

When the final step mother came into my life and my siblings Life.we already had gone through two step mothers. My dad in his life he was married three time. I have heard the speech iam not here To be replace your mother iam here to be your friend. But as soon as Their time in my dads life as over they left my life too. My final step mothers Love was a Toxic Apple and I ate It. So Ley I was 17 when you flew in from Queensland to Western Australia too be with my dad. You brought over two of Your kids with you and you left some of your kids in Queensland. Now iam reflecting I think maybe Ley if you can choose which kid to bring over From one state to another that's a clear sign that your not a good person. Ley I have chosen Too write this diary about you because the mental and emotional battle wounds that I still have from the battle with you are still raw Even 9 years later. When I hear the family Say your name Out loud. Because when I attempted To give the Family my verbal Caution tape About you they Raced To place a Shut up tape Over my mouth I felt soo alone after the Nightmare the same way I felt inside the Nightmare Brought by you the creator of my personal hell. This woman loved too confuse mentally by Saying things that didn't make sense such as your not sane but mentally sound. I believed you when you said that your the evil step mother that they write about in the kids fairy tales. My Evil step mum was a Very confusing person cause for my toxic Step mother would tell me that if I called her a Nice person she would take it as inulst but if I called her a Bitch she would take that as a Good thing. My final Step mother Love is a toxic apple and I ate it. My final step love is a Toxic apple and I ate It. When I moved in with you Dad Ley you both said Welcome home But You should have said welcome to hell..I thought I had found Pardise amounts of frozen ice over My Parside cause my final stepmum. Love is a Toxic apple and I ate It. My Final step mum and my said the night I moved they should have said welcome to the hates of hell. I thought I had found Pradise but then a heavy amount of frozen Ice over my Pradise cause my final step mum you tragically lost your son to mental illness and then she made the topic Of mental illness and She made the topic of mental illness taboo in our house even though mental illness was what Everyone was suffering with I understand that was your way to cope with your heartbreaking and tragic loss of your son But in truth making the subject of mental illness Taboo only made It worse. My Final step mothers love is A toxic apple and I ate it. Toxic but I ate it anyway. But only was your apple Of toxic it was a traumatizing apple. The apple you gave me was the reason I thought that my life would end At 20. Cause you took away your love and in return you gave me a knife and you and my father stood there and you both encouraged Me to use It to end my physical presence On earth. But no I Refused to give you both the joy of knowing that they were the reason my life was over. So i chose to Live. My final step mothers love Was the toxic apple and I ate It. Iam soo Grateful That I did Survive that the domestic violence at the hands of my Dad and Ley. My final step mothers love is a Toxic apple and i ate.it