Essay 2. 20
Ley you Told me that you Were a Follower of the Lord And god but I found that you were the fakes Christian I have ever met. I think because I grew up athesit and I had no education about God and what being a Christian means I was vulnerable too the fake believers that I came across in my life.
I was 17 when I left everyone and everything that I know for my new life that you and Promised. But then the cyclone of mental illness Came through our house and it left alot of mental struggle in its awake. But my Evil step mother Got Me into crystals and she was a spritual Person. But then the darkness of depression chose to Live in my brain. So then I was living hour by hour. And I was doing the Eggshells dance Of trying not to trigger My Step mum and my dad ptsd. I remember my first drink when I turned 18 Was with My Dad And his Wife. This Woman that is a fake Christain.i was Aged 20 when the scariest night of my life happened. And when I thought that I was going to die young. When I came home from my day of volunteering work at the foodbank And I was living in Fear In my own home because I was on Sudice watch due to no one in the house talking to me when I felt that I was attempting to cling on To the dark mental illness cliff And I had domestic violence and horror happening in the place where I sleep. Pretending To sleep so I could stay aware of what was happening In the house. 20 years old some say that my life then would be Just starting But I was thinking that my life then would End. I wasn't living at all. It was just before my 20th birthday when I was sitting on my bed and I heard My dads wife was in the kitchen and I thought that she was cooking dinner.but then I was quickly shown that i was Very wrong. Then my Dad came into my bedroom with his big eyes he was angry at me.cause he found my note that I wrote about how I felt that everyone would be better off without me. And then His Wife Came Into my Room with a kitchen knife. And they both said that if you wanna end your life Do It. I tried to scream but their laughter was Too loud no one heard my Cries. But then I sat there physically on my bed in that horrible moment. But in my head I was thinking of how I Want to see My friends The next day.
So I just sat there waiting for this trauma when I was 20 years old to be over. But This was my Reglions trauma when I was 20. The next day everyone got up as Though nothing Happened. The number 20 is a special number.cause it's the day of my birthday and also the age I was when I Thought I wad going to die. Iam sooo Grateful that I Survived. I didn't tell anyone about this night of horror I have never looked at a knife the same way again. This trauma at 20 years old has stayed with me. And made me think that the kitchen knife is not only a kitchen tool but it can be a traumatizing weapon. But now iam overcoming this trauma. I Am Building my faith in the Good Lord In despite of this reglious trauma and in Despite of you Ley.
So I Say thankyou To My 20 year old Self for finding the strengh to Survive that Hell So I Now as the 28 year old me Can be here in the Much brighter sunshine of Life.
20 is when I Had to find strengh I didn't know I had.
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