My collection of essays for Russell part 3.

Essay 9.

Place a trigger warning on this Essay as I do mention mental illness and in the past my friends who attempted to take their lives and how I helped them. Both of these friends did Live after their struggles.

Russell after I left my domestic violence situation with my Dad and his wife. I Didn't open up the dark chambers of the trauma with my dad and his wife named on it.i didn't Heal my trauma right after I left his house of hell. I had 2 friends that were mentally struggling at the same time so I shifted my attention to them. My friend that I went too High school with had Gone through some very sad a dark trauma in her childhood. I love my friends. Then suddenly I didn't like the way my high school friend was speaking she was calling for the end of her life. I screamed No. I love you. Then my friend started a long and dark path of wanting to turn off the bright spark of her Life out. Then it broke my heart to try Again and again to turn off her life. She would harm her body. And she tried sooo many different ways I was very scared of losing my friend in this heartbreaking way too soon. I was racing around the city saving My friends. My High school friend was in Many mental health unit. All across the city I would Go to the hospital again I was like a Nurse on on Call. Cause I wanted too be there for my friends. Because when I was depressed and I wanted to turn the bright spark of my life out felt alone. I didn't want my friends to be alone in their dark time of need. I have never been inside of a Mental health unit for myself but I have been in the mental health units for my friends. Would do some shopping for my friends and take it into the hospital to them such as coffee and chocolate. Racing around the city saving My friends. It was a Tough time when I was around the City cause I felt disconnected from my family the when my Grandpa was sick. There was one time when my friend from high school tried too turn off the physical torch off her life was soo heavy and it was in a way I have never heard anyone ever doing. Before. I tried too stay hopeful but it was sooo dark. I will never forget comforting her mother un the ICU unit in the hospital. And I called my grandparents who I lived with then and then and I told my Grandma that I might be late home. My friend is in a bad way. I didn't think she would make it that night but a miracle happened she did make it through. Racing around the city saving My friends. Over 30 times. To turn off the torch of her life. I thank God that I was able too be there for my friend and that my friend did ask for help Racing around the City saving My friends. Then after that my friends then after that my mentor was in a dark mental space after the three pieces of her heart. Left her I was very worried about her. Racing around the city saving My friends. I also Didn't like the sad way that she was speaking at all. Then her sister who have been mean too her alot during her life called the police to do a welfare Check on her. Then she went to the place to get some help. I visited her in there and did some shopping for Her. And then she came Out. Then she moved towns and moved houses. Then she was stressed out then she was Lost without the Three parts of her Hearts. Racing around the city saving My friends. Then she called me to Come to her new House. I got lost then I saw one of her friends. Then I got to her house and my heart broke at what I saw inside. At what I saw. I saw my mentor laying on the floor and she was the saddest I have her iam sooo glad that my friends are still here. And I sadly don't talk to my mentor anymore. Racing Around the city saving My friends.