Essay 3. Russell paved the way for my Recovery from domestic violence.

Russell iam 8 years out of a domestic violence situation with my dad and his wife. It went for 2 years.it was very traumatic for me. I moved out of home with my mother and my siblings when I was 17 cause I felt torn beween my parents and I was in a tug of war game with each parent pulling me in their direction and away from the other. And my dad told me that my life would be better than it was with my mother. So at age 17 years I moved in with my dads third wife she had two kids. My time living with my father was ok for a short time till I got depression and my father got ptsd and his wife lost a son to mental illness that house was full of people suffering a form of mental illness. But instead of everyone loving and caring for each other. Everyone was triggering each other and walking on eggshells suddenly no one in the house was talking to me and I found that my dad lied when he said that living with him would be a better life. Living with my father I thought was Pardise the ocean was around the corner from our house I found my own hell in Pardise. My dad was a angry former prison officer and one day my dad got mad at me when I couldn't turn a bathroom tap off correctly and she pushed me into the shower. My dad Russell always said to me into the shower. My dad Russell always said to me and my brother don't say anything about what happens inside this house outside of this house. This is how Russell paved the way for my recovery from domestic violence. Russell I thought that my life would end at 20 years old.because of my reglious trauma in my domestic violence situation I had learnt that vulnerability was dangerous and when I left my fathers house after he kicked me out of his house when I had torn my all in my knee. I took my dad to break free from him. I had too have the police watch Me collect my stuff the day I was in court with my father was on his birthday. The fact that the court day was on his Birthday wasn't my choice cause my family and the courts wanted to get it done as soon as possible. Russell paved the way for my recovery from my domestic violence. Me taking my dad to court led to 7 years of us not talking before he died. Russell paved the way for my recovery from domestic violence. When I left I had no idea how too start healing from my trauma. I had many walls up I didn't feel safe being open about my feelings and my traumas such as my dad Putting me in the handcuffs. When I tried to tell my family about what I have been through with my dad. They told me to shut up cause my dad wanted my truth that led to 4 years of me feeling not safe to share my story. Russell your YouTube channel where you talk about the news that is against the mainstream media helped me to find my voice again. Russell you helped me to find me to think if you can do that and do honest journalism then I can have the courage to start slowly speak about my trauma. Russell then in lockdown it was the first time I had to sit with my feelings and my trauma Russell I saw you on YouTube being vulnerable about your addictions and your recovery and I started watching you everyday at all is possible. Russell for me hearing you talk about your recovery you have helped me heal from my domestic violence trauma Russell paved the way for my Recovery from domestic violence. Your medaitons helped me in lockdowns when I was struggling mentally. Russell paved the way for my recovery from domestic violence. Russell I remember the first connected with you on locals I told you about how your YouTube channel helped me find my voice after I was told by my family to shut up about my domestic violence situation. And Russell you said to me iam sorry you went through that and you said that I was worthy of respect also you said that no matter what I have been through that I was welcome in the community. Russell paved the way for my Recovery from domestic violence.