Essay 2. I believed in no God but Russell awakened me to having faith in God.

Russell I grew up in western Australia. I grew up with parents that were both athesit and who gave me no education about God and or reglion at all. And my parents hated each other me and my family didn't go to church the program when I was a child was a athesit and nothing sacred.i did have my senstive heart. I couldn't be truly me. Living with my parents cause my father was in and out of me and my siblings life. I do feel that my senstive heart. Russell was a connection to the sacred that was within me. When I was in school Russell I was in the special needs classrooms and they were not allowed to teach anything to do with reglion. I had a friend that was a guy who used to have fights with the teachers because they would not teach anything about Reglions. I believed in no God but Russell awakened me to having faith in God. So all throughout my childhood and teens I was athesit while trying to protect my senstive heart. I believed in no God but Russell awakened me to have faith in God. I didn't have many people that had faith in God around me. Russell when I was 20 years old. My fathers wife Ley told me that she was a Christian. I remember I got in trouble with my dad because he didn't know that his wife was a Christian. That should have been a conversation both of you should have had before you got. Mad at me because he didn't know that his wife was a Christian. That should have been a conversation both of you should have before you got married. Russell my fathers wife turned out to be the fakest Christian I have ever met when I was depressed and my mindset was dark at that time and Ley and my dad the most scariest night of my life.she came into my bedroom and she brought a knife to me and I was sitting on my bed. And I was screaming and crying but they were laughing at me. And they encouraged me to pick it up. But clearly I didn't pick it up. I Survived. Russell the reglious part of this trauma was the hardest part to heal. But Russell that's where you come in I saw you talk about your addictions and recovery and you sharing your faith in God and your Spritual beliefs. Russell your medaitons have helped me in my own healing from my own trauma. And Russell you taught me that God And christ is about love and peace and unity and forgiveness I believed in no God but Russell awakened me to having faith in God. The death of my absuive father made me more aware that I need God and faith in something Spritual that is larger than me. Russell I spent a long time searching for God before my dad died I was praying to go for my dad to be saved from his terminal brain cancer then when my dad got covid before he died. I prayed for God to make my dads death as painless as possible. That was my most emotional and the hardest prayer I have ever prayed. I believed in no God but Russell awakened me to having faith in God. Russell just recently I have found spiritual strength finding a connection to the God within me. Thankyou Russell. For sharing your own Spritual beliefs and your faith in God and christ has been very helpful too me as I ditch the athesit programme I got in my childhood and Russell you sharing your faith in God has helped me in my healing from my Reglions trauma I believed in no God but Russell awakened me to having faith in God. And now in my tough emotional and mental Moments I pray to the God within me for strengh. I believed in no God but Russell awakened me to having faith in God.