Hello my beautiful senstive hearts this is my new song.
The hardest prayer I have ever prayed
This song is deeply personal for me.
First verse.this song is about the hardest prayer I have ever prayed which was this year while my dad was in the hospital with terminal brain cancer and in the end he was in the end of life care. And then I was still enstraged from him cause I had to free myself from him to live free from abuse. So I felt soo helpless.the only thing I felt I could do was Pray. And I sooo badly needed and wanted strong faith in God and christ while I was losing my dad.and then I prayed the hardest prayer I have ever prayed which was to God I stopped asking for a cure for you and tragically I asked for your suffering to be over I never cried sooo much in a prayer the hardest prayer I have ever prayed.
2nd verse.dad i never wanted to lose you but I was praying for God To heal you but that wasn't my choice so I knew that me praying for your suffering to be over meant me losing you my heart broke the morning I lost you dad. I hated that I didn't find out till the next morning after the hardest prayer I have ever prayed.
Chrous.but what is truly sad is when you died it was the answer to a prayer. But I never wanted you to die dad. And life is now measured by before I lost you and after.and I lost also a big part of me that I can't get back so I need faith in God and christ more than ever help me find who iam now. The hardest prayer I have ever prayed. Was to God to end your suffering while being aware that means losing you dad.
3rd verse. Dad I miss you now and forever you love in my heart the hardest prayer I have ever prayed was not wanting my dad to suffer no more.and I wanted what was best for my dad. Cause praying for you to live dad wasn't working.yeah.
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4th verse. The hardest prayer I have ever prayed was full of raw grief and feeling of hopeless and my love for my dad.and a small amount of acceptance that I didn't wanna lose my dad but watching my suffer was horrible.the hardest prayer I have ever prayed. Dad I love you.
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