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Poem 4. Oh  My Lord Jesus and  Life Creating Sacred Father i Do Repent For Staying Loyal To a Holy Temple that Had the Poison Of Political  symbols And words Of False Awakeness Within Its Walls And in The mouths Of The Staff.

Tonight On The Day In the  thankful and Rememberance season That The Faithful Human My too  too Raw Heart for this World bleeds With a Strong Sense Of Ache That I had To give up The Holy Temple In the Rememberance season Of  surrender  Oh my Lord Jesus and  Life Creating Father  Me And My Soul  Yearning Desire To Find a Physical holy Temple For The Blue Magical Life Changing force of Faith that Is For you that sits in the Hallowed Halls Of my wounded By Life Heart To Rest in while My City  and the Land Mass I call home collapses and Becomes Somewhere I don't Recognise Anymore and To Bring my Deepest Wounds That sit in Me to the Lord Jesus and The Life Creating Father and I do So For a Season But I know that The Black poison Of Political symbols And words Of False Awakeness Within Its Walls  and In the Mouths of the Preachers that I did Place The Inward Grace Of Trust into. Oh Lord Jesus I  Saw A False Awareness Sign Of The  country And the Land That the Holy Temple Sits On top of is Robbed From The Group of Society in my Fallen  Country which I came That The Tv we Watch and the Political Leaders Who Have a Enduring Sense of Self Importance of their Words but they Only Speak The Empty gospel that Is void Of the Holy Lord And all life Creating Father That  Is The True Creator Of the Land I call Home  So I do think That the Whispers and Symbols Of the  false Awakeness Has Crept it's Way to a temple that Is supposed To Be About Only  Preaching the Holy gospel Of the Heavenly Father With a Heart Overflowing For The Wounded and Fallen Humanity on this Evil Captured And Run Earth Soo Much He Gave Us his Son. but In the holy Temple i did send up holy Requests Multiple Times a week And I devoted My Heart Too and I thought I would Never Leave. I did Picture My Future special Occasion Where I Say My Life Tying Vow Of Forever Lasting Love Within The gothic Halls Of This Holy Temple But Tragically  that  Short Lived Dream of that Future Love Tying  Vow Occasion Won't Be Happening In the Gothic Halls  Because I Reached the End of My withstand Limits To Tolerate The Fake Type of Awakeness that Has Crept in To The Holy Temple But the Thought of Leaving Was Too Heart crushing for Me to Even Fathom But Now that Is The Heart Open Bleeding Wound That I do feel Now Through My Determination to Live as True to What The Holy Son has Preached to Us.  I do Believe that a Holy Temple Should be Political But  the False awakeness that My holy Temple Preaches Now Is Not the Same Eye World View that I share. While Forgein Unknown People Flood My city The Holy Temple was My One Place With a Connection to  Tradition that  my Soul Yearns for That my city and the land I call home Has Lost. My church Diaries. The  Man I shared My  personal Darkest Nightmares With Did Truly Help Me Oh Lord Jesus That If I Take a Honest self Reflection Mirror  Maybe It Was The Church Man Helping Me with My Personal Darkest Nightmares and To Bring the Holy Grace Of Healing did Keep Me Coming Back to the House of My Faith. oh Lord Jesus Please Forgive Me For Staying Loyal to a Church That was Shouting A  type of Fake Awakeness that  was Not the same value system that I hold. I Have Now Left Because they are Celebrating A Woman Being Used to  Keep the Fake Awakeness Going across the Pond In their  Fallen Land Under the Evil Ones Capture. My church Diaries. Oh My Lord Jesus and Life Creating Sacred Father i Do Repent  for Staying Loyal to a Holy Temple that  Had the Poison Of Political Symbols and Words of False Awakeness within its Wall and in their Mouths of the Staff.