My book of essays of Support for Russell

My Poems for Joe In the stay Free Team    

Poem 2.  The addictive Hunting Vampire Giving The UK strong Boxing Fighter Tickets on the Hunger Rollarcoaster

Last week the UK Strong Boxing Fighter Beautifully Bares his soul Open By telling The Broken Preacher That I Love and His Mates and his Hard Working Team and too The Viewers on the app I call My Online Home That He has Been highly Captured By the Addictive hunting Vampire that wants To suck The Life Out of you That Tells you as you Enjoy some Sweet  treats Or my Weakness that is Fried chicken that Just One More Bite is what you need to Quiet down or To Kill or Numb The Inward scream Of The past Or Current Wounds That Lay in The chambers Of The UK Strong boxing Fights heart and mind But When The Addictive Hunting  vampire the Delights He Gives you the Unbelievable need For that does Go Past Logic Your Brain waves Of Thoughts misfire and Tell you That the sweets delights that either You eat or drink or smoke Are sweet enough too shift your focus From the Fact that the addictive Hunting vampire that Has the Satan Given Task To Not Only Too Meet as Many people in thesiddeir Lives it's Also Too and to Not Care At all if they are successful or Not Or even if have a Job Or Not.or where they come from The Addictive Hunting vampires Just like Normal Vampires they want  to suck The Blood Out of you and leave you  for Dead. but That's when the Holy Trinity can Save you  when you Cry Out for Help. I have had My own Life dance with the Addictive Hunting vampire And  I got to a  personal shameful Breaking Point Where I was Paying Rent to my Dad The Man I trusted to Keep me safe under his roof And I couldn't No More afford The Feel Better Pills that  I only Used for a Short Time that I did suddenly Stop taking them which I don't Recommend at all. But I then Replaced the Feel better Pills With the Sweet and tasty Food Because the tasty Food was Cheaper than the Feel better Pills but then The addictive Hunting vampire Giving Me tickets to the Huger Rollercoaster I then Mixed the  eating sugar In High amounts with the physically  Slashing and Lashings of myself and that was a Troubling and dangerous combo for me  I can See upon reflection that my  Dad  and His wife Being my biggest bullies in my Life made me feel  Out of control. But When I was Out of the house and doing Volunteer Work At the foodbank  in this dark chapter of my Life I would self Medicate with Tasty and High Sugary Foods. But  I did Find  that the addictive Hunting Vampire  created a Overwhelming Urge to  indulge In eating  take away Food Or a large bag Of potato Chips  before 10 am in the Morning would Create the Emotional Beast Of Shame to Overcome Me which Only Made This  Dark cycle To Make me Run around in circles. The  addictive Hunting vampire Giving the UK strong Boxing fighter Tickets To the Hunger Rollercoaster.  And as the UK Strong boxing Fighter said That the Hunger Rollercoaster Has Highs When Your Eating the Tasting good food but then the Lows When you Regret the Money spent On the High amount Of food Or When the binge Eating Leads you too High the Toilet And your sick. My Rock bottom with the Addictive Hunting vampire grip on Me Was When I ate food at the Golden Arch Popular take away Food and at my Dad's house I was Hugging the toilet In sickness But then  in my Madness I went Out For more food from the Golden Arch. But As I Left my dad's house I found that the  addictive Hunting vampire Grip on me got  Less But I still sometimes Feels his Grip On Me Especially when Iam watching Sports and IAM eating chocolate and Sugary foods I have done Eaten those to the point of  feeling physical Uncomfortable but Iam aware Of The existence of the Addictive Hunting vampire And His possible Grip of me.  So the UK strong Boxing Fighter Is Not alone In his Grip Of the Addictive Hunting vampire  capture Of him.